Cinta...Sesakit Itu Kah?

Dua orang yang saling mencintai...tidak dapat bersatu karena beberapa hal yang tidak akan dapat dirubah oleh mereka...

Dua orang yang saling mencintai...mengerti bahwa segala sesuatunya tidak akan sejalan dengan apa yang mereka inginkan...

Dua orang yang saling mencintai...ternyata harus mengorbankan semua yang telah mereka jalani, karena pada akhirnya mereka tahu bahwa cinta mereka harus berakhir dengan tanpa saling memiliki

Salah satu orang dari yang saling mencintai...tidak ingin melupakan orang yang dicintainya...tetapi Ia sadar bahwa hidup tidak harus mati hanya karena cinta... hidup harus berjalan... no matter what and no matter how...

Salah satu orang dari yang saling mencintai...harus merasakan sakit yang dalam karena harus menghadapi suatu kenyataan...dimana kenyataan itu benar-benar tidak diinginkannya...

Salah satu orang dari yang saling mencintai tidak dapat mengerti...mengapa cinta tidak dapat saling memiliki dan mengapa cinta telah membuatnya begitu sakit.

~ Dedicated for a friend of mine...and also for my "untitled" ~

so so day!

My tummy is feelin funny...maybe bcoz I had an instant noodle for breakfast, ran out of bread again huhu. Mr Lee's class was okay. Total for our study hour, we're only got 1 shift, instead of 2 shifts. It was all because of he told us story about his new book that now you probably can see it on Gramedia or other stores, telling about magic or sumthin.

Anyway...si muka tomat *ahahah...I used to meet him for showing those arabic bracelets, but damnly he wasn't @ campus, and the poor thing was Gita, Wiwit and Wiwit Ibu left me alone @ the basement with so much hate feeling bcoz suddenly, coincidencely, and shockingly, we saw someone that is SOOOOOO NOOOOOOOOOTTT IMPORTAAAAAAAANTTTTT!! But thank god, saved by Botel...he laughed about what I'm afraid of after I told him that I met that n'est pas beau!

So, it's been a quite so so day for me today, but not fosho...coz tonite I'm going to have a dinner @ Brasserie with my whole big family! Can't wait to be there soon :D

I had a blast week!

yah! Gue ngerasa minggu ini bener2 cepeeeeeeeeet banget! Mungkin karena too much works to do (again!). Ngga kerasa hari ini udah hari minggu lagi! Meskipun I'm having a long weekend rite now (iya, libur sampe rabu bo!), tapi yah..many day offs = many assignments!

Seminggu ini ngga ada yang berarti banget buat gue hehe, ya gimana ngga...nilai2 gue jeblok semua!! Gue sedihhhhhhh banget. Ngerasa sih blom maksimal ngerjain ujiannya...tapi how bizarre!! Ujian yang gue ngerasa gue bisa, eh malah dapet nilai jelek, dan ujian yang gue pesimis dapet nilai bagus malah dapet nilai yang memuaskan! Selain itu minggu ini Cuma ada assignments2 dan bab2 baru yang menurut gue, gue harus bekerja keras untuk dapet nilai bagus di final nanti!

Oh iya, minggu kemaren Ang Ti ulang tahun. Acaranya di Hang Tuah, dan theme nya Garden Party! Dekornya baguss banget! Meskipun malem2 dan di dalem ruangan, tapi suasananya bener2 di taman gitu, ada replikanya Eiffle Tower pulak, dan dress code nya juga santai, om2 pada pake kemeja lengan pendek dan tante2 sama sepupu2 pake dress yang nuansanya bunga. Makanannya banyaaaaaak banget. Perut gue sebenernya dol, tapi akhirnya merasa kenyang juga hahah. Dan Ang Ti dapet surprise yang bener2 surprise banget dari tante2 dan om2...DELON NYANYI DI PARTYNYA!! Hahaha, ibu2 pada heboh gitu dan ngga terkecuali sama om2 dan sepupu2 gue juga sih. Sumpah rame abis, pada maju ke depan panggung, took pics with their cellphones...dan gue hanya berdiri di belakang sambil makan sushi heheh.

The unbelievably Worst Week!

Last Monday and Tuesday were the last midtest I had, scientific writing and French, and they were soooooo daaaaaaamnnn harrrrrrrddddd!! French was the worst midtest I ever had , it wasn't because I didn't studied the day before but the fact is I DID LEARNT IT...FOR TWO DAYS! It was all because of...THE QUESTIONS ARE UNBELIEVABLY NOT UNDERSTANDABLE! Believe it or not...after I got off from the class, and my friends asked me to eat, my answer was "No! I'm not hungry". I was too stressed so I lost my appetite. I even answered the sms from a friend of mine by saying "Hah? Apaan? Bisa lebih Spesifik lagi ngga? Gue lagi Bt neh!" hehehe...sorry yah Gie..

Ok, enough of talking about the miserable midterm. Last Thursday I had a meeting with my big family, discussed about my cousins' marriage. Since there are 4 cousins who wanna get married on this year, 5 months in a row (WHEW!), so I had this meeting from 11 until 4, and my shirt was wet bcoz you know...The weather on these days is UNBELIVABLY HOT! It was raining but still hot, dunno why. And at 4, we're planning to go out for a movie. Me, My sis, Mbak Shinta, Mbak Yo and Mbak Yenny then gone to Pelangi (a.k.a Plaza Semanggi f.y.i ), have a dinner and walked around searching for cute watches. I got a new sandal with heels hehe, a kewl ring and also earings hehe. When we're waiting for David (Mbak Yo's future husband hehe...Si Bule Gila! Hahah...duh jadi inget Bule yang gue liat di JIS, pas nonton Pippin, No! Not the main character! He's SOOOOOOO CUUUUUTEEEEE! Sayangnya berondong yah!!), I wasn't sure about the next day plan I have, coz I felt that I wasn't well (gara kena gerimis juga pas nungguin mobil kayaknya sih), and afraid that I couldn't go to the MTV VJ HUNT Finale.

Yep! What I had afraid of was true...at night I had an UNBELIVABLY TERRIBLE COLD & FLU! On Friday Morning, I was too sick and I decided not to come to Mr. Lee's class. I just had my breakfast, took some pills and sleep again until around 12. I rang Wiwit, and told her about for that night plan, and then I rang Riko and told him that I was so sorry coz I couldn't go to JHCC for that night. After that I had my lunch and took my pills again, and took a nap. Oh yeah! Before that, I got a message from my friend Burik about Sindrow's birthday, so I rang her first and then my mom, and then I took a nap. 5 o'clock I felt much more better, I ate again, watched Full House, suddenly I dozed off. When I woke up, It was around 7, and I was shocked when I checked my cellphone, I got 1 message and 2 miss calls from Adit. Hiaaahiahai...I was totally forgot to inform him that I couldn't come to JHCC!

Saturday morning, I felt very good coz I had spent so much time on my bed, taking a rest hehe. I supposed to have a French class at 11.20, but when I got there, my friend yelled to me from across the street..."PERANCIS NGGA ADA!" HUH??? It was UNBELIVABLY THE BEGINNING OF MY BAD DAY! Yep! Coz when I got home, My Mom and Dad were sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo urghhhhhhhhhhhh!!! *I can't describe what was my feeling at that time. They don't want me to sleep on Ibis Hotel where Sindy's birthday took place. So, I told them "terserah sih mau jemput, pokoknya jemputnya abis pulang dari Bearland! Di Slipi!" Since I knew that Slipi is far from Jatinegara, so it gave me a bit happy coz I know they would pick me up very late hehe.

Nope, my thought was wrong...they picked me at 12, when I was waiting for the room service to come! DAMN! And the saddest part was...they told me about many bad things on me with an angry tone on the way home from Semanggi to Fatmawati...my ears were UNBELIVABLY STIFF!!!!!! I hate when they’re always saying, "We're always right", but in fact they are always told me about something that is farrrrrrr beyoooooondd from the reality! THEY'RE NOT ALWAYS RITE! Oh, they're also told me about something that they think that I'm stupid or something so I have to know it, but in fact I ALREADY KNOW IT, AND I'M NOT STUPID! I hate that! And f.y.i. I still hate them! Specially my dad who always has a bad thinking about me! And always ask or tell me with a high tone...I'M NOT DEAF!!!!!!!!!!! Cuih, SUMATRANESE! That's why I don't want to get marry with Sumatranese, they're soo damn temperamental!

Oh iya...ulang tahun Sindy...It was fun! Thanks Sindy! Happy Birthady Againn!! Muach muachh! Doh! Nonton film horror...Phone (Korean) and I forgot the other one, is it Shutter? Or Sutter? Well anyway itu tuh film Thailand, and it was UNBELIVABLY HORROR!!!!! Kita ber 14 orang ada kaliy, teriak2 mlulu di kamar hahaha...takut digedor2 kamar sebelah juga sih...but it was totally fun! Meskipun gue ngga ikut nginep siyh...hiks hiks...

Oh iya!! Ada Gosip...waktu ke Citos (janjian sama Kania di situ sebelum ke Ibis)...ketemu sama beberapa orang, dan pokoknya salah satunya bilang ke gue "iya, makanya...jadiin lagi ajah!" sambil ngeliat ke salah seorang lagiy, gara2 mukanya jd jerawatan ditinggal pergi huauhahuhua...siapa yawww...huahau ah udah ah :p

Kyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!

KYYYYYYYYYYYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Huhuhuhu...hari ini ujian sociolinguistic BEDEBAH! Hiks...semua hafalan gue ilang karna kebanyakan ketawa dan bukannya ngafalin malah nyanyi2 bersama Riko! Hiahiahiahi...awalnya siy karena gue kecepetan nyampe kampus, terus mau nungguin Gita di fudkort tapi sepi berat, akhirnya ke basement, ngga taunya ketemu sama Adit, Lani, Riko, Bowo, Nugie, dll...jadinya malah ngobrol2, ketawa2, makan2 es krim, dan nyanyi2! tapi ndak papa juga siy, gue jadi dapet info lagu2 enak dari Riko, karna selera musik kita ndak jauh beda! Asik!! Oh iya...gue juga dikasih tau kalo' taun depan JAMIE CULLUM and DIANA KRALL berencana (BERENCANA SODARA2!! B E R E N C A N A!!! hehe) bakal ke Indo!! Aseeeeeeeeeek!!!!

Abis ujian tewus ke BP nonton Spongebob Squarepants bareng Gita, dan dia udah kayak emak gue nganterin gue nonton film kartun huahauhau abis isinya anak2 + mami2 + mbak2nya semua! Mana dapet kursinya di J! Huhauhau, tapi sumpah kocak abis, gue seneng!!! Hihihihi...

Mayday!! Friday Bad Day!! Yayyyyy!!

Huhuhu...ngga jelas titlenya...

Duh! Bt! Anwar got eliminated! Jadi males nonton American Idol lagi, and also gara2 Mario Vasquez juga sudah punah meskipun dia beda problem sih. Yang jelas...hidup Guy Sebastian! *loh

Kemaren nonton BCA mobile what ever gitu di MetroTV, dan gara2 nonton itu, jadi buat gue mikir2 lagi tentang masa depan gue...hopeless dey gue, ngga tau pingin jadi apa hahahah...pinginnya siy jd penyiar radio (the real one!!), tapi musti belajar banyak tampaknya. Pokoknya si Om yang jadi pembicara itu bilang "Do what you Love or Love what you do"...hehe bener juga siy! Gue soalnya jadi mikir2 kalo gue salah jurusan! Harusnya gue ambil fasilkom or sumthin...sekarang gue hanya bisa untuk mencintai apa yang gue lakukan sekarang...hiks hiks...

Lagi malesssssssssssssssssssssss banget belajar, besok padahal ujian INTERPRETING! Mak! Sumpah gue ngga ada bayangan ujiannya gimana, soalnya gue slalu praktek sih di kelas. Kalo soal2 teori, wassalam ajah hehe.

Pingin ngerjain foto2 gue yg terus di wrapped pake' quickfilm, tapi sayangnya...fotonya kurang!! Huuuuhuu...masiy nungguin foto yg pas di ultah rico neh, tapi ndak enak mintanya, meskipun udah dijanjiin bakal dikasiy siy...GIMANA DONK??? Auk ah...mending makan aja dey gue...

Anotha Hectic Week

Sunday, 100405

Jam setengah 6 pagi udah bangun! Rekor bangun terpagi di hari minggu tuh! Biasanya bangun jam 10 atau 9 paling pagi! It was because of I had a big family gathering @ Hang Tuah which started on 10, but they said that Aunty wanted us (cucu2 yg paling besar) to get there @ 8!! So, at 7 we (Gue, asta en Dinal, but we dropped Dinal first to Alizhar) leaved da house and arrived there @ 7.30! Oh Great! Kita kepagian!! Jadi cuma Gue and Asta doank yg ada disana bersama Pak Nas (the annoying person who wants to know everything! Gossip Sissy!). 10 past 8 Abbie and Sari arrived, thank god! And one by one the others arrived with nothing than a gripe face! I knew they all had a same thought..."IT'S SUNDAY FOR GOD'S SAKE!! I STILL NEED MY BED!" Oh well, the gathering was great enough...coz there was RIBS, MASHED POTATOES, TIRAMISU, CHOCO PUDING and CARAMEL PUDING FOR LUNCHHH!!!!!!!!!!! Heheheh...oh! Right now, I realized that I have a a big family, I mean A REALLY2 BIG FAMILY! Sampe' Kak Baby bilang "wah kalo sekarang sih pasti pada kenal2an, nanti kalo ketemu di jalan, mobilnya nyerempet juga bakal marah2an" buhabuahabua...

Abis itu gue ke PS dey bsama Anka, Alzena and Asta...nonton The Racing Stripes! Funny as hell! But you know what, I cried a bit at the end of da movie, kinda touchy indeed!! Huhuuuu...

Wednesday, 130405

So damn tired, gone to Gita's house @ 5! It was all because of that damn funny japanese movie, I only got 4 hours to sleep! Sleeping in Gita's car on da way to campus, by hugging his teddy bear (I called it with somebody's name that I won't tell you who hehe) and stucked my ears with earphones, listening to Guy Sebastian's songs from my Atrac CD. Had classes until 1 o'clock, felt more tired...but then Idunk and Bipay joined me, gita and wiwit...made me a bit awake because of all da story that could make me laugh and because of discussing about da questionnaires result. 5 o'clock...waiting for Titut and Ian til 7 and then gone to Bowo's house, tahlilan 7 harian nyokapnya.

Jam 7 akhirnya berangkat ke rumah Bowo bareng Titut, dan Lani, dan temennya Titut yg sama sekali ngga bisa diem! Berisiiiiiiiik banget. Gue jadi ngga ngantuk lagi huahuahu. Untungnya dia cuma diturunin di depan Alazhar, mau naik busway, kalo ngga...hadohhhh bisa pusing gue dengerin dia ngomong mlulu huahauha. Sampe rumah Bowo sekitar jam 8 kurang, untung tahlilannya blom dimulai. Pokoknya selesai tahlilan gue sama yg lain langsung keluar gitu ketemu orang2 yg ngga ikutan masuk. Gue ngga kenal smuanya siyh, yg jelas ada Riko sama Botel. Ntah kenapa, hari itu meskipun malem udara PANAAAAAAAAAAAAASSS banget, padahal gue pake kaos. Mungkin juga karena gue kebanyakan ketawa ngeliatin tingkah Ian, Titut, Lani, Rama sama Riko. Pokoknya sampe gue keringetan! Untungnya abis itu kita semua masuk ke kamar bowo yang dingin dan nonton video amatir yg berhasil direkam oleh Bowo...video performancenya Riko, Botel and D'essensial! Gue ketawa mlulu dengerin cerita dibalik semuanya!

Jam sebelas kurang akhirnya Gue, Titut, Lani dan Ian pulang...sampe rumah jam setengah 1! Tepar abissssssss! Untungnya sih besoknya libur hehe :D

Thursday, 140405

Shoped with mom to ITC!! Went to Wiwit's house...did da research method project. FINISHEEEEDDD AT LASSSSSSSST!! Noodle omelette made by Wiwit's mom was so irresistable! Nyummiy!! Pretty full hehehe... was waiting for my driver @ Gita's house, Idunk called...huah!! Couldn't stop laughing! And then Pasha called...confirmed about his birthday "ulang tahun gue tuh 19 oktoberr!!" buahuahauh...sorryyy I really2 didnt know!! He told me about the story behind his 'unwanted' new hair, made me laugh more harder!! Joined Gita and Bipay, talked about his Lambatz friend...a guy who has a gf 5 times bigger than him??? THAT'S FUNNY!!! hauhahuahu...

Friday, 150405

DAY OFF!!!!!! SLEEP A LOT!!!!

Saturday, 160405

Just went to campus, had a make up class on first shift until 4th shift. Met Bipay and Idunk + Arti. Idunk new hair cut has a mohawk on the back huahuahau.


Monday, 180405

Went to campus, made some junior to fill on my group's questionaires...AT LAST!!!! Abis itu nomat deyh bsama Gitcrut, nonton The Pacifier...VIN DIESEL...I ADORE THEE!!! huehuehue...


Tuesday, 190405

I have nuthin to write, just had a teaching observation on da Management Class...BORING!!!!!!